iim scared.
really.
what do i do?
i cant cry.
i cant say out.
i trap everything inside me.
i cannot do anything.
i dont have th courage to say out.
i admire them,
able to say everything out.
i want to cry.
but theres no shoulder for me to cry on.
iim sick and tired of forcing everything inside.
i want to let out.
but i dont dare to.
is not tht i dont trust my friends.
i dont dare to tell.
seriously.
& i know,
crying wont solve th problem.
i hope,
i pray,
tht one day,
it will be gone.
i just hope it doesnt come true.
or one of my friendship will break,
into pieces.
but,
at th same time,
i need it to come true,
so i wont feel trapped anymore.
i need tht freedom.
my heart feels as though its fucking locked up.
i hate this feeling.
i dont know which to choose.