should i be happy?

Out.

met sam & we went bugis.
i love the new shopping center. its comics collection full of DBSK stuff.
however, bugis is my nightmare manzx.
i mean, i got shocked by something someone told me.
well, sam says cause i have the height. (hint, look at the pictures. or read my private blog.)
& for IORI's sake. do i look so old? i mean, why will people jump when they know i'm 16. zz.
left my hp no & left. i wont ever call, so sam, your dream's broken. HAHA!
okay. i need to forget this.
next, went suntec & met up with keanonn & raymond.
I LOVE HMV. so many DBSK albums & singles & posters! (*^▽^*)
shopped, got things we all wanted.
thn trained home.
i whacked raymond's head when he is look out of the window thingy & his head knocked against it super HARD.
MUAHAHAHA!
anw, had super much fun today. YAY!

{Dont. Just dont.}

Cassis - The Gazette.

Another you, another me.

JAEJOONG! (^ε^)♪
ahhhhhhhhhh! he's so super hot even in candid photos! *hugs*
LOL.

school was fine. MT quite okay. but then, something was shred into pieces. okay. some booklet thingy.
after recess, its all shit.
i cant accept the face tht my tests results dragged my ca1 marks down. so i couldent get an A1 for science.
i'll try harder to get to my aim.
i passed all subjects.
theres something give me the push thou. so yeaps. everyone, jiayou & dont lose to that bastard.

{Behind.}

Lost number - Kra

i found out

DBSK.
adorable beyond words.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY, KATHLEEN!
school was alright, & had amazing discovery. LOL.
i feel so guilt free now. muahahaha~!
oral was alright.
while waiting in the room, yuting was highing about how Qin Shi Huang's english name is James.
LOL. ya. dumb. thn played with ahmad & alfred when yuting went out. i keep whacking them both. OPPS.
the funny conversation:

YiTian : i'm better then him. *refering to ahmad*
Ahmad : & i'm better then her. *refering to me*
YiTian : Alfred sucks most.
Ahmad : Ya.
Ahmad : *to Alfred* you suck to the core until you cannot suck anymore.

LOL!
thn its MY turn, & i cant believe i said OMG to the cher. opps! haha~
after tht, went playground with yuting, shijie, jemina, kathleen, malcolm, melvyn & hiangteck.
cant say what we do. *acts to forget everything i saw, hear, see* LOL!

anw, theres something, i want everyone to know.
pardon me for corase languages.

If you have the balls, you wouldent be insulting people.
If you have the balls, you dont have to scold people in your fucking shitty blog.
If you have the balls, you wont be bloody backstabbing us.
I used to force myself to accept you into my group of friends simply because i thought they were close with you.
now, i found out i'm not the weird one whom dislikes you.
i found out that all of us detest you.
you may be angry & all after reading this, but tell you what.
tht is simply because of the fact tht we've gotten it all right.
its cause we didnt fall into your lousy trap.
its cause you're feeling guilty.
you can keep your fucking attitude to your lousy self, cause i have one of my own too.
if you feel unhappy, you're more thn welcomed to say what went wrong, instead of sulking in one corner, & posting anger posts on your blog.
yes, its your blog. but hey, this is mine too. i get to say whatever i want.
oh, i know why you dont want to have a open talk or whatever shit.
this is cause you're just a stubborn cowardly bastard who cares only about your lousy self.
curse us? oh please. go curse yourself.
i'm being nice here.
i'm not getting any revenge.
but hey, remember this. i didnt say i'll let you win.
i'll push you all the way down.

& you want to confront me?
bring it on. i'll wait for your confrontation.
& before confronting me, ask yourself this.
why are you confronting me? is it because i have your name here? no i dont.
it is because you know yourself what you've done.
& if you are trying to bluff yourself & say tht i'm talking about you,
think again.

i wont write your filthy name here & let everyone know.
but i didnt i say i wont write your name on my private blog.

now i have confirmation i'm not wrong.
i was right all along.
its just tht, the rest of the girls, they're too kind to think bad of you.
if you say tht i'm mean, i dont care.
because a comment from a loser like you dont mean anything to me.
sorry, no more chances, you bloody fucking lousy asshole.
please go knock yourself against a wall.
if you think just by insulting & all can bring us down, try it then.
i'll prove to you.
failure will fall upon you instead of us, because we're not the one who have evil intentions.
thts why, i dont feel any guilt for holding a grudge against you all along.
get the fuck outta my sight, bloody no life loser.

{Finally,}

Hello again - DBSK

living without your love,

HAPPY BIRTHDAY REITA!
SuzukiAkira.
I LOVE HIMMMMMM!
lol. since when did i dont love my idols.
but hey, he's my favourite bassist among all my idols.

school was as usual.
chinese, i got 54/70 for the paper 2 thingy we did ytd. WHOA. lol.
have food as usual. no need eat breakfast before go school again, tmr.
thn have talk thingy. may be going for the direct admission thingy for poly.
I WANT LIVE SCIENCES COURSES~! LOL.
went playground slack after lunch.
thn homed.
tmr oral, so 4E9-ers, JIAYOU!

& jemina, the jaejoong's pic below.
ya. i know he is like, ADORABLE BEYOND WORDS.
hahahahahah!

i'll get to post jaejoong's photo tmr!
yay! *excited*
LOL.

{Dead end.}

Ganges ni akai bara - The Gazette

One at a time,

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MASATO!
SuG's main guitarist.
actually wanted to post jaejoong's photo again. but its masato's birthday, & i love masato!

school was alright.
i love MT lessons manzx. hated the stress management talk.
chatted for quite long at CU with some ppl, & thn headed home.
nth much today.
I LOVE JAEJOONG.
lol, i went facebook did 'which DBSK character can fall in love with you' quiz & got JAEJOONG.
i'm currently super high. LOL! OMGOMGOMGOMG!

{Our childhood memories.}

DAILY TOON LATESHOW - SuG

let me be your light.

JAEJOONG~
hahahahahahaha~
i bought DBSK file today. YIPPIEEEEEE!

so today was, BORING.
had MT for 6 periods, & last 4 periods FREE.
most of us decided not to combine with the other art class, so stayed in class.
had some crazy moments with shijie, jemina, faiz, malcolm, khairul, & iaene.
thn khairi joined us. shijie was doing the weird twisting thingy to her ARM. damn it.
it freaks me out. malcolm was doing it as well, & hell, he can twist his thumb. AHHHHHH!
drove me nuts.
i've got scibbles of JAEJOONG on my hand. OPPS.
hahahahha~ i showed it to almost everyone i see eh? HAHA.

after tht, lunched. keep laughing, so cant finish my noodles.
all thanks to 3 idoits namely, YUTING, SHIJIE & JEMINA.
cause shijie keep reminding me bout jaejoong thing. damnit. AHHHHH!
*cracks kuckles.*
okay, i shall stop cracking. LOL.
then, imm-ed with them, & bought stuffies. cant reveal. BLEAH.
went subway for refreshments, thn home-d.
HAD FUN SPAMMING ORANGUTAN WITH YUTING'S PHONE.
LOL. we're impposible. &, shijie's honey order was canceled. HA-HA!


JaeJoong stole my heart.

{Something in your eyes.}

PROUD - DBSK

daze.

JAEJOONG!
kyaaaaaaaa!

okay. am rotting at home today.
& i can slowly go crazy over my idols.
HAHA.
KimJaeJoong!
opps.
ok, i love love love him manxz.
he is so effin adorable!

okay, DBSK is effin adorable.
they're playing with dolls.
jenny dolls. LOL.
watch the vid here.
Junsu's doll's pants fall off. LOL
& he lost his soul when he saw they dolls.
hahahaha!

& their phone call to super junior.
vid here.
i mean, jaejoong's so super funny luh.
LOL.
still scream for his mum.
"MOM, IM TALKING TO KANGIN HYUNG"
&
"MOM, WHOS PARK JOON HYUONG "
hahahahah! my jaejoong rocks.

& their helium inhaling thingy.
well, it changes the voice.
HAHA.
vid here.
12012 have done it before. tooru was the one who inhaled it & started talking with super kawaii voice.

GAH, i cant get enough. LOL

{Lyrical Sympathy.}

Stay with me tonight - DBSK

DBSK.

Audition thingy today.
well, of course not for me.
hahas. i think everyone know its for, eh?
so no need say.
anyways, rotted in orchard cineleisure til not sure what time.
subway-ed there, & walked ard. saw earrings sold at 0.90 only. bought some.
thn,
to heeren. went in, saw HMV. dashed inside, in search for jrock stuffs.
went high when i saw MIYAVI's album. then, searched,
found gazette, alice nine, 12012, ayabie, versailles, & of course tons of other jrock bands.
&& i found Hide's solo album. also, X-Japan's album. like, WHOA.
they have some old bands also. am totally suprised.
Miyavi's new hair is so super nice can. LOL.
love him to death, even thou he's married. haha.
only miyavi's tht album was for sale at 60.95.
all other albums of my idols were for sale at 79.90.
& singles were frm 29.90-35.
OH MY. i want to grab all & go manzx. no $.
after tht, mrt-ed back to JE. & went imm.
pepperlunch-ed & walked ard.
thn took aipoh's cab & alighted at hse downstairs.
today was tiring, seriously.


heres what i've realised.
Korean guys + Plastic surgery = HANDSOME GUYS.
Japanese guys + Makeup = HANDSOME GUYS.
Singapore guys + no makeup + no surgery = so-so guys.
hahahahahhaha!

{You just made me crazier.}

Yubisaki - Ayabie

dying.

THE GAZETTE~
lol. my darlings!
oh my, look at top left.
its KAI abuse! humph.
baddie RUKI.
SAY NO to KAI ABUSE!

wore specs to school today.
headache's killing me.
gastric's killing me.
social studies lesson's killing me.
so yups. thts how my day went.
almost everything was killing me.

okay, good luck for shijie's audition, tmr.
yay!

{Disappointment much.}

Aitai Kara - 12012

You are in a part of the gear.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY, SHUN.
he's the drummer of Arc. & hell, he's adorable!



anw, results sucked.
all were below my target.
failed both chinese & english paper 2. by 2-3 marks.
geography : 37/50
socialstudies : 32/50
chem : 58/65
physic : 41/65
science paper 1 : 30/40
math paper 1 : 42/80
math paper 2 : 52/100

so yeaps. math improved.
science was okay, i guess.
oh wells, at least i maintained the A1 for science.
cause got A1 for mock as well, for science.
need to work harder so i can get A1 for geo, & so combined humans can be pulled up to A2.
& i need to pull up math to B4.
chinese, grats luh. i'm dead meat.
english, first time failing paper 2.
for prelims, i need to score.
damn it.

{While watching the trembling shadow, rationality is mutilated.}

Mad Monster - Detroit Metal City

The image that doesnt stop rotting.

PaRaDiSe.
yay, they rock. heehee.

went walk ard with shijie, jemina & yuting.
obviously forced myself to wake up.
i've not been getting enough sleep these days.
tsk.
headache's here to stay.
getting worse each day.

anyways, people, please note :
those who've smsed me ytd, i'm sorry for not replying.
my phone's not getting any smses again.
i only saw those smses in the morning when i off & on it again.

see you guys in school tmr.
lets hope everyone get good results.

{With this hands which are not reaching out and this feet which are not making a step forward,
my faults are dancing in a squared miniature garden}

Vi Vi Vi - SuG

Gig stuffy.

Angels & Demons ROCK, damn much.
baddies are always hot.
& good people are just, . . . normal.
Gig stuffy was alright. & would be ALOT better if theres more AIR.
*rolls eyes*
i almost killed myself in tht studio. i mean, wheres the oxygen.
RAWR.
headed to macs with sunbear, penguin & orangutan after tht.
AIR-CON!!!!!!!!!!!!
keep playing like idiots. cannot blame. we're animals. HAHA.
haha. okay. now,
i'm too tired for words.

something has made me feel so super down today.
*sad face*

anyways, tmr panda's having concert band practice.
tsk.
my panda so kelian!
*heartache*

{Dont ever look back.}

Scheat - SuG

rise & shine

BOO, people.
*laughs*
i'm so bored right now! ^)@^%#)*^)$*@&%@&*^#^
okay. later meeting yuting, khairi, alfred & poiwong for movieeeeeee~
YAYNESS.
after tht, go walk ard, & at night, going watch classmates' band's gig.
wheee~
& i'm gonna be so damn tired.
& i bet i cant sleep early again.
&&&&, tmr meeting usualpeeps. YAYNESS X 100.
HAHA.
i want photos!! RAWR.

listened to heisei ishin's new single.
rocks. \m/

i'll update with photos (if any) when back.

damn. i shouldent wake up so early.
*YAWNZX*
i've got peishan's eyes.
HAHA. ya, PANDA EYES.
*roars with laughter*

i'm soooooooooo looking forward to tmr.
*GRINS*

{Like a fairytale.}

Umbrella - Heisei Ishin

zoo day

ZOO.
with yuting, jemina & shijie.
other photos, too lazy to upload.
LOL.

fun uhs.
some monkey was urinating & almost hit jemina & yuting.
*laughs*
baboons are disgusting, like seriously. *rolls eyes*
I LOVE LEOPARD CAT.
i mean, its basically, a cat. but with leopard prints.
AHHHHHH!
there are tons of kawaii animals there. WHOOHOO.
& yuting keep wink-wink-ing.
werido.
HAHAHAHAH~
okay. too lazy to say what happened in detail.
but zoo was FUN.

end of day,

YiTian = PolarBear. (cause i'm white.)
YuTing = Penguin. (cause she's short.)
Shijie = SunBear. (cause she's dark.)
Jemina = Giraffe. (cause she's tall.)

Aitakute

KEIYU & YASUNO!
(≧▽≦)
look at keiyu, so kawaii! & someone tell me why yasuno's fingers are soooo long?


stayed home today.
watched tons of PV, old, & of course, NEW.
like, OMGOMGOMGOMGOMG.
i love ayabie's new pv.
release date for their single is 27 may.
wheeeeeeeee.
*hops ard*
haha. okay. the pv's AWESOME.
they've changed alot, but hell. they look hotter this way.
HAHA.
OH MY, KENZO LOOKS SUPER DUPER HANDSOME.
teehee.
so does AOI, YUMEHITO, TAKEHITO & INTENTSU.
*insert fan girl scream*
i went over high when aoi sang aishiteru.
i'm like, WHOOOOOOO!
lol.
okay, so for the pv, clicky here.

tmr going zoo with yuting, jemina & shijie.
YAYNESS.

people, i've removed some of you frm reading my private blog,
cause i no longer think you should be reading.
& whats really going on, is my privacy.




//Lair.
I keep telling myself, its my fault that you lied.
but hell, i dont care anymore.
you dont mean anything to me.

{& i'll laugh.}

Hallelujah - 12012

i dont ever want to say goodbye.

went shop for shijie's assessment.
was a failure.
went lunch & look at other places.
i saw RandyOrthon's poster.
WHOOHOOOOOOOOOO.
lol. he's like, super handsome can.
fyi : if you dont know, he's a WWE star.
WHOOHOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!
okay, realx. haha.
anyways, i'm the tallest there.
HEHE.
i dont want to type out who else there. LOL.
it'll be insulting.

RANDY ORTHON! o(〃＾▽＾〃)o

i'm not violent okay. *glares*

{Because i want to meet you.}

Shadow VI I II - The Gazette

Qualitative Analysis actually kinda rock.

LAST PAPER, TODAY.
*laughs out, REALLY loud. *
teehee.

paper was okay,

went shopping with kathleen.
yuting wasnt able to make it.
AWWWWWW.
lets hope she gets well soon.
anw, saw PANDA care bear.
took a pic of it, wanting to show peishan.
HAHA.
just now msn she still thought i bought it.
why would i want to buy a panda when i already have a cute panda named PEISHAN?
haha.

took some pictures randomly.
posted the dumb panda & one i've taken at hommmmme.

sprained my back.
DAMN IT.

tmr out with shijie, yuting & jemina.
YAYNESS.

(*＾ー＾)ノ

{I'll tell you what distress is. Fill me up with your grief.}

LAST TIME - 12012.

i'll miss misuru.

SuG.
Yuji, Chiyu, Takeru, Misuru, Masato.

i'll miss misuru so damned much when he leaves. (/_;)/~~
not tht i'm being mean here, but he may not be a great looking jrocker, like my other idols.
but hell, i love him tons.
i dont want him to leave SuG!
o(；△；)o
heres, another thing for me to be sad about.

i still cant get over the phantasmagoria thing, thou its been so long.
& i'm not pass an cafe thing as well.
& not brodiaea thing.
oh damn it.
how the hell am i going to get over this.
MISURU!~ 。・ﾟﾟ･(≧д≦)･ﾟﾟ･｡

well, but he said this isnt the music path he wanted.
oh well. guess he's like negishi in detroit metal city ehs?
no matter what, no one will ever replace him.
yes, they may have a new drummer soon.
yes, i may fall in love with tht other drummer. (because i cant control seeing good looking jrockers)
but hell. i'm not gonna forget misuru.
even if he's a drummer, the songs he write are nice.
i love love love misuru~
*sobs*


anyways, exams are almost over.
tmr's science paper 1.
chem & math paper 2 were hell.
this is the 1st time i've lost all my confidence while doing chem.
yes, i'll pass. but i wont be able to get an A1.
damn it.
math paper 2, as hard as expected.
oh wells, mid-years are really out to kill.
we can only work harder.


i've fell in love with another watch!
i want the pink oneeeeee! but the turquoise one is nice too.

{I'll cherish every second spent with you.}

Cherish - SuG

my mind's a blank.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY, TAKERU!
o(^▽^)o
i love love my dear takeru~

math = hopeless.
geo = unfinished.

DAMN IT.

changed password for msn alr.
& people, please stop sending emails to my old email add.
i need to keep going in tht & deleting mails. damn it.

let me know who it is,
& i'll make tht person suffer.

so yeaps.
good luck for tmr, people!

{The mind is its own place, & in itself, can make a heaven of hell, a hell of heaven.}

CIRCLE OF SWINDLER - The Gazette